Waiting sucks. Especially when there is no guarantee of things getting any better. Cuz let's be honest, life doesn't come with many guarantees. I spent years of my life feeling EXACTLY the way you explained above when you said you couldn't deal with the hurt and felt like things couldn't or wouldn't change. No matter what changed- who I dated, who I lived with (I moved out of my parents), what school I went to (I switched on my own), where I worked, who my friends were and my 'circle' were etc. Seriously, I felt like no matter how hard I worked at and tried to get myself together and remove people who were drama-magnets from around me, I was still miserable. I disagree that time will change anything. I know it sounds cliche and you probably don't want to hear it, but the only thing that made a difference in my life was when I broke down and really gave up all my worries to God. I was on rock-bottom and had tried "doing the right thing" till I was just so exhausted and fed up. I guess I forgot that following the Lord isn't about a big to-do list (or what-not-to-do-list), it's all about realizing that this world SUCKS and we will always long for more because we were MADE for more than this. The world is going to hell, but as a believer in Jesus, it isn't my personal responsibility to save every single person and do every possible good deed. Part of being a Christian that I needed to learn is the opportunity to just receive grace. To just fall down, fall apart, curl up and cry and let God take over. I know that sounds cliche and doesn't make much sense, but all I can say is that there's so much emphasis on how people should live for God that I don't think people understand that God wants to give life, hope, and abundant joy to His followers. He came to give Truth and Freedom. Thinking about living for God shouldn't feel like signing up to be a nun, it should feel like being swept off your feet by the Creator of knights-in-shining armor. It should feel like being wrapped up in security that can never be taken away and being in a relationship with someone Who will never, ever let you down, disrespect, or abuse you. I am reading a book called The Ragamuffin Gospel and I think you'd like it. It'll speak to your heart. I'll keep you in my prayers.
It can teach you things and build relationships. Tools are neutral; they can be used for good purposes, for bad purposes, we can use it wisely or allow it to trample into our thoughts in ways we shouldn't.
It is just a tool. Don't like it, don't use it.
Using it? Use it wisely!
I really need to remember that it isn't all about me. It's all about Him.