But no sound came out.
I closed my eyes to cry,
But no tears flowed.
I feel every imaginable emotion, all at once,
Yet I am numb, and completely empty.
I feel at peace,
But my thoughts are chaotic.
I wish the world and its confusion away,
Yet it does not leave.
I grind my teeth, I tighten my fists,
But this is not enough.
I slit my wrists, I burn my skin, I take many pills,
And everything goes away.
And I am at ease.
Until next time.