The emotions welling up inside me
Make me question
Do I really know what I’m doing?
Looking around,
I see I’ve surrounded myself
Leaving no way out.
Was this really my intention?
To get in so deep
I no longer have the choice,
The choice to determine
My own life’s path?
My own life style?
I thought I’d divorced
What controlled me, possessed & trapped me.
Now here I find myself again
Burdened by guilt at the mere thought
Of doing something for my own sake
My own good, my own future,
My own sanity.
Age 20
Make me question
Do I really know what I’m doing?
Looking around,
I see I’ve surrounded myself
Leaving no way out.
Was this really my intention?
To get in so deep
I no longer have the choice,
The choice to determine
My own life’s path?
My own life style?
I thought I’d divorced
What controlled me, possessed & trapped me.
Now here I find myself again
Burdened by guilt at the mere thought
Of doing something for my own sake
My own good, my own future,
My own sanity.
Age 20