I accepted You as my Savior,
So long ago I turned my life around.
Why am going back to that old life, Lord?
I love You so much
And have a desire to obey You deep within.
But I cannot overcome this sinful nature.
Father, make me want to obey You!
There are so many things
Spinning around in my mind.
Sin is my escape,
My temporary relief.
Christ, I realized You should be my comfort.
I know I should give my life up to You, Lord,
And give You the authority to tell me how to live.
I don’t want to do this,
Except for a tiny bit of me deep within my soul.
That tiny bit drove me to saying a prayer.
A prayer lifting my life up to You
And reluctantly telling You I’m ready to let You lead me again.
I told You to do whatever is necessary to get me back on track,
But as I said the prayer,
I said it so emptily
That I was confident it was useless.
But You saw into my heart, Father,
You saw past my bitter heart,
You saw that tiny bit in my soul.
One of the sources of sin in my life,
A source that had been my main comfort,
Lord, that tiny bit of my soul knows it’s best,
But I don’t want to let go.
I have no choice,
And now I must deal with the pain
And empty space left within me.
I fall to my knees, Jesus,
And through tears and sobs,
I ask You to be my comfort.
Answer my prayer.