I wouldn’t, I should say.
It didn’t happen to you
And it didn’t happen today.
“Look at the bright side,”
I know that’s what you’d tell me,
But I’m just so scared, I’m so shocked,
I think of what the worst could be.
I just talked to you
About everything last night.
About how God had a plan for us,
About knowing things would be alright.
I guess when we said we had a future,
We didn’t know what it would hold.
I pictured it so different, so great,
But I can’t ignore what I’ve been told.
I can’t pretend I didn’t hear it
Or that it isn’t true.
Oh, Lord, I know it’s wrong to say,
I just wish it wasn’t you!
The phone call came
And the teacher called me outside the door.
She started slow, “This morning, he had a seizure…”
Oh, Lord, don’t let there be more!
So much flashed through my mind,
What is she talking about!?
“He’s in the hospital now,
They might have to transfer him out.”
Oh, Lord, Oh, Lord,
That’s all I could think,
And as I stood in that hallway
I felt my heart and stomach sink.
Dazed and silent,
I walked back to my chair,
I couldn’t hear the sounds
Of the other kids there.
None of them mattered
As the clock ticked along,
I just told myself over and over
I have to be strong.
Down the hallway,
Near the end,
A girl was approaching,
She’s a long-time friend.
When I spoke to her
There was a tear in my eye,
We left to a quiet place
So we both could cry.
So many what-ifs
So many questions without a single answer.
Oh, Lord, I beg you,
Just don’t let it be cancer.
He’s been down that road,
It was long and filled with pain.
All these worries, these questions,
I feel like I’m going insane.
Think about what to do,
I’ll ask his aunt how he is
Maybe she knew.
She hadn’t heard;
I saw the pain on her face.
Now, I know, is time for prayer,
Time to depend on God’s grace.
We called the hospital
And I got to hear my love’s voice.
A sigh of relief,
No, a sigh of rejoice.
He said not to worry,
He said he’d be fine.
Thank You, Lord, for answered prayers,
Thank You for love divine.