And to carry upon myself the burdens of man,
Delivering them to the Lord,
Without revealing my suffering or working to any other,
For I find not comfort from others,
And I seek not friendships for my own benefit.
I slip in and out of lives,
Giving others the Holy Spirit so they may,
After struggling,
Thrive in His Glory.
I come and go,
So meekly
That my drifting closer and farther
Is not even noticed,
And though the work I’ve done transforms so many things,
And opens so many hearts, minds, and doors,
I receive neither recognition nor gratitude except for from a small few.
I want it that way,
That’s how it was meant to be.
I have come to live as one
With the peace that Christ gives us all,
The peace that most fight against.
I fear nothing,
When intimidated,
I call to the Lord and am given renewed strength, wisdom, and confidence.
I give to all that are in need,
In need of something to feel whole,
In need of God’s Grace.
Strangely,
Though I so passionately love and take under my wing these “children,”
I feel neither pain nor sorrow as I begin to slip away.
I feel no yearn to hold tight,
Though I grow so intimately involved in caring for these friends.
The only pain I feel is as I am giving to those who want not to accept help.
I feel the fire inside of my soul being slowly drained.
I could cease this unimaginable pain in an instant,
Yet I choose not to,
For I am destined to be a giver.
Age 14
Christ was the ultimate giver. He lived His life not for Himself, but for His enemies. He was peace, in every sense of the word. He gave, to all in need. He had the option of calling out to the Lord and ceasing the pain of giving, as He was being crucified. He was given recognition and gratitude only by a small few. He was destined to be a giver.
“Do as God does. After all, you are His dear children.”-Ephesians 5.1