But, I just never do.
So many times, I know I just shouldn’t say something.
But, I do anyway.
So often, I should just stop everything
And give you a hug
Because I need one; we need one.
But, I don’t.
When you look into my eyes,
I see everything.
Everything we both know,
But just can’t, or won’t, admit.
How did we get
So far away?
Why is it when I was weak,
You held me up?
Why are you weak now,
And I can’t hold you up?
When did this happen?
It must’ve taken time.
I know it was gradual,
Happening right before our eyes.
So how can this realization
Hit so hard?
I look back now
At what we used to have.
I remember feeling, knowing
Nothing could ever go wrong.
Could ever hurt
Like it does now.
The pieces fit together now,
The little things, just formed too big a pile.
I look into your eyes
And I see you feeling the same way.
I see you looking at me and
Acknowledging what’s happened.
We can’t ignore it any longer,
Can’t pretend it’s not there.
You dealt your way; I dealt mine,
We just forgot to deal together.
I look into your eyes and
I see you slipping.
Age 15