I’d heard it before.
But you insisted,
Pursued me even more.
Slow and skeptical,
But steady and true,
I let my fears rest at ease
And fell in love with you.
My insecurities,
I expressed a lot,
But to my heart,
They weren’t worth a second thought.
I told you often
It was hard for me to trust,
But always to remember
That deep in my heart I must.
You said you’d have faith
Enough for both you and me.
You said you loved me so much
Nothing else mattered; that’s how it’d always be.
You showered me
With care and praise,
To win my heart
Took only days.
On the outside
I was still scared,
But my heart,
It was fearless; it only cared.
One great day,
I’d put your love to yet another test.
If you passed this one,
It’d mean an end to the rest.
If only you reacted,
Just the way I needed,
I know you’re the one
For whom I’d pleaded.
Your response began shaky,
And finally came out.
It confirmed
My very tiniest doubt.
It was too much for you,
You said I was too hard to love.
The burdens you readily took
Had pushed down too hard from above.
The day I was ready
To show you my heart’s true state,
Was the day you had too much,
And sealed our relationship’s fate.
You just said you changed,
Something inside of you died.
I was stunned
But I cried.
We talked so much,
But nothing was the same.
Soon we grew impatient,
And sought each other to blame.
You like another girl,
One who didn’t pull you down,
I grew so sad,
She wore my crown.
You said we’d be friends,
Just like we’d always been,
But it seems too hard for you now,
Harder than it was then.
I forgive you when
You do not call,
Or when you forget me,
Standing in the hall.
When we’re supposed to hang out
After school,
I understand when you change your plans,
Obviously, she’s more cool.
I said I’d do anything
To be a friend to you,
But you don’t understand,
You have to be my friend, too.
It hurts that I
Always give all I can,
But when I asked you to give,
You turned and ran.
Now I question
My strength to go on,
When will the pain I feel
On your heart dawn?
I give you
Chance after chance,
But day after day,
I scarcely get a glance.
You said you were different,
I believed you.
But looking back on the others,
I’d believed them, too.
Age 15