For our whole lives,
Something has kept us apart.
I struggled against the notion
That you are a brother
Only in my heart.
Circumstances, time and distance
Kept our connection at bay.
A hope within me burned-
Insisting it needn't be that way.
If time brings healing;
Wisdom comes with age,
Now was certainly the moment
To step up to the stage-
Play the part of family
In roles that needed filling
The pain I felt did not deter me
When I confirmed that you weren't willing.
I could see you didn't desire
Another sister in your life.
Your mind and heart were burdened
With searching for a wife.
I persisted with genuine faith
To open my heart
And extend my hand to you,
The brother I always wanted,
Needed, was within my reach,
What else could I do?
I was fully convinced that, for once,
Time was on my side.
Whoever whispered that concept in my ear
Most certainly lied.
Here I am without you,
As I've always been,
But the burning hope within me
May never be rekindled again.
I won't be blessed
With any more chances;
Won't cross your path on this earth.
There's no point to send
A card or letter, but I'll write this,
For what it's worth:
I love you for who you are inside
And I'm sorry life kept us apart.
I'm devastated to realize that you have died;
You've always been and will forever be
My brother in my heart.
Age 26