So I close my eyes,
And let my mind wander,
And my tears flow aimlessly.
I think of how it must feel,
I shred through the depths of my mind,
Searching for a way to help.
There is none,
So I pray, aimlessly,
And let the tears flow.
I feel pain,
So I close my eyes,
And let my mind wander,
And tears flow aimlessly.
I go numb to the pain,
Not to the state of mind,
For I feel the frustration, anger, and vulnerability.
My thoughts sour,
To those of the Devil,
Those that could end everything,
Those that are emptily emotional.
So I pray, aimlessly,
And let the tears flow.
I see hopelessness,
So I close my eyes,
And let my mind wander,
And tears flow aimlessly.
I yearn to give hope, give strength, give courage,
To use my very last ounce of being to give to them,
To help them go on.
I try so hard to give,
Through words and actions,
I cannot give enough,
Even if I gave infinite amounts.
So I pray, aimlessly,
I feel so weak, so empty and drained,
Others offer to me,
I refuse.
I give up and give in,
To the thoughts of the Devil,
To rid myself of emptiness,
Better to burn and be punished, as I deserve,
Than to be numb to everything but pain.
So I pray, aimlessly,
And let the tears flow.
I see and feel the Lord’s Presence,
So I close my eyes,
And let my mind wander,
And my tears flow aimlessly,
So I pray, aimlessly,
And let the tears flow.
Age 14